aniexty, Coronavirus

Blame it on the drugs … prescription ones

Children.

Never grow up ?

I was up and out by the time I was 18. Living day to day, with a baby 👶 it can be done people are pathetic now. I though was also made to have a job at 15 to pay my parents. I co up never imagine that of my children. Never did. Now for their own enjoyment – hell yes. I did so much for my kids – my boys are great and I love my daughters more than life itself. I love my granddaughter and my soon to be grandson. He’s due May or June 2020 , of sure yet – or heck I will be honest , she doesn’t speak to me anymore. Might be good ?? I don’t bother her. Still not sure what happened that will be another post.

No matter how you raise someone or treat them you are never going to make a difference.

I love them all more than life itself. Makes this Coronavirus so damn scary.

I left them exactly a year and week ago 1600 miles away. I have tickets purchased and cannot see them to hold them check on them love them. Stupid bans which I know make since but I miss my kids. I need them.

What if I never see them again. What if I never …. that’s my mind.

Which is probably good , since it’s worst out here in the west coast instead of the MidWest.

I definitely don’t want to kill them. Give them anything they might not be exposed too.

I have started out patient full day tele group conference therapy.

I mean who that is loosing one home , one daughter, one son in law, and two beautiful grandchildren , ya know of course who we need therapy.

I don’t think being quarantined though with a 2 year old 3 year old and husband who maybe is 5-8 (he can wipe is own ass). Is not the time to be starting (“testing”) new drugs : KLONOPINS – PROZAC – LEXAPRO , and some other shit for nightmares and sleep.

Wow don’t you wish you were a fly on the wall ?

Or at least able to video – would be hilarious let me say. The mood swings the confinement.

Can I say though our yard is so fucking awesome. We have worked so hard. I have purged so much. Inside and outside- one good thing about the drugs.

I also have worked so hard on setting up a home office.

Let me tell you this shot looks awesome and now I am on short term disability. So it amazes me the amount I can get done.

My other half is on FMLA – yeah sad as shit I can’t stay awake I stumble , I fall, I forget a lot and I moody as SHIT.

My youngest daughter need to have her stuff purged a bit more, but have you ever really tried to purge the toys of a 2 & 3 year first and only grandkids ? Haha yeah I do have it decorated finally OMG that took forever. I need to purge her closet. My lock my self in there today and do that ! How the hell did the 3 year old get the room that is biggest and the closet the size of my master bathroom lol.

Get it done and 3 weeks later damn doing it again. I did get a lot of her clothes purged. She has no shorts – so that’s on my list to buy might go on line and do that now.

Her brother who is barely a year younger is doing well. His dad loves to buy him stuff. I am lucky there one less thing. Madison doesn’t wear diapers anymore so -her pants fit differently.

Wow what a random ass post.

I blame the prescription drugs !

Look forward to more musings – Ohhh !

Pictures too we had a side “gravel drive” poured, I am so damn excited. A place that we can park our cars not in the street ever rain mud snow whatever !!

We got mulch for the front yard now too so it looks good.

Pictures to come of it all !!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s